Longing
Agh!!
For the same price of washing my brain away with expensive beer and untold cigarettes, after a mediocre meal in one of these Winston-Salem franchise restaurants, I could be going to a concert in New York, and perhaps enjoy myself more than what I currently do.
For the same price that I pay for a ridiculously overpriced apartment and an old car, I could be paying for a nice apartment in New York and walking to my office every morning, with the added benefit for my health.
For the same price that I pay for eating out every day I could be going to all kinds of ethnic markets and eating from what I know how to cook.
The dreariness and abulic atmosphere reigning in this city are a miasma that extends beyond intentions into capabilities, dulling intelligences, mellowing courage, and corroding life with the same inexorability with which rust eats away ships in the bottom of the ocean, no matter how big they were.
Guess what?
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All I can say is I know the feeling. The unknown seems more attractive than what is. Thats a tough spot to be in. I thought it was my attitude that needed to change and I tried, really I tried. It wasn't until I was forced out of that space that I saw that was exactly what needed to happen. I have never looked back once.
Posted by: Liz | February 6, 2005 9:29 AM